Life is not so forbidding and dreary as it seems. But yes definitely in those jiffies when you dearly miss someone who was very close to you, that feeling, that emotion, that soppiness is unexplainable. Here, I come with this special post on V day for all those people which I am sure comprises all of you who are reading this and who have experienced this hurtful feeling of losing someone, for all those who have felt that numbness when you hold on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.
Think of someone who was very close to you, someone who use to occupy a special place in your heart, and someone who could have died for you or you would have sacrificed anything for he or she, someone you know cares only about you, someone very special, very close and explicit. They can be anyone - your friend or beloved, your mother or father, your sister or brother, maybe your son or daughter or anyone unknown attached to you with the special bond of LOVE or care. But unfortunately the person is at present not with you and can never be.
Sitting on the terrace or balcony, sipping a cup of coffee or your favorite hot tea when you try to find someone in the rain drops falling from the sky and producing a sound clearly reminding you of the company that you used to have fun with; a person who was always there for you when you needed to talk on anything under the sky or beyond it. You dearly miss the talks, you miss that voice, you miss hearing those crazy but cool stories and above all you miss that special person.
You got the most awaited result or your dream came true. That spiteful moment when you desperately wanted to share your happiness and called the person who was and is very close to you, give a hug and share your happiness with them! You know deep inside that they won’t come and you can’t go, they won’t call you back and you can’t call them either.
You were so enjoying your loneliness once. Yes, that’s what you always wanted especially when someone came shouting and yelling at the highest pitch and you just buzzed them off to avoid their company .But now all you want is to get disturbed! You want to fight! You want that person to come and show differences! But ironically, you surely know that there will be no teasing, no fighting, no pillow fights, no snatching and no looting.. What was once a trouble has become a need! The loneliness has changed everything. And then you often catch yourself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with your mind set so far, reminiscing about that smile, voice and touch, damn this life and you miss that someone!!
One day you return home tired and depressed. You so want a shoulder to cry and a lap to sleep, you need that soft hand to caress your head, a tender kiss and a comfortable touch just to make you realize that there is a person on earth who will always be with you no matter what. But you wake up and realize that there is nobody beside you to give you to give a lap to sleep peacefully like a kid.
Everything remains the same! The rain, the coffee, the night, the pillow, the bed! Your eyes are constantly in the look out, searching for someone tirelessly. The togetherness, the love, the tenderness - They all seem to be a mirage because that someone who can give you all this is not there.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But we never forget them. The oppressive necessity is that we have to live and the mockery of relationships in this life is we never know what we have until we lose it, and once we lose it, we can never get it back. Here comes the forte of love which is missing someone whenever they are apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because they are close in heart. We miss all the little weirdest things and then we ache with longing. Though we can decorate absence however we want but we still feel what’s missing. Often when we realize how precious those seconds are, it's too late for them to be captured because the moment has passed. We realize too late.
And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on. Like someone said when you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers; remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever. Missing someone will undeniably get easier every day because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.
So live with this feeling as the person you miss will be surely somewhere listening to you or your heart. No strings attached but that special essence will never die. Life will continue but with the vacuum created by such emotions which sometimes make us weak and the very next make us the most strong.